This mental tendency is probably why I got into the habit of almost exclusively watching some sort of crime TV: Law & Order, CSI, Bones, Criminal Minds. I enjoyed the non-fiction shows just as much, Forensic Files, American Justice, Deadly Women and the like. David would comment about how I was trying to learn how to off him and get away with it. No matter how much I said I wasn't, that the solving was what I found interesting, not the crime itself, he would still eyeball me when I offered to get him something to drink for no reason.
On my last trip to Laredo a poem came to me in the usual way - fully formed while I was trying to sleep. I finally got up to write it down so I could sleep. Since my thoughts, and my writing, have a tendency to be somewhat dark, I had been making a conscious effort to watch more comedy and less crime. Unfortunately, options in Laredo were limited and the ever-present Law & Order helped drown out the noises my neighbors were making. So, I blame what you are about to read on television. I am concerned that David is going to be more suspicious than ever (even though this is NOT ABOUT HIM) and my Poem It Out classmates might not be prepared for my kind of poetry.
My Husband Thinks I Watch Too Much Crime TV
You might as well go on
being who you are
because we both know
you and I both know
that any change you make
will be short-lived
and your half-hearted promises
will be forgotten tomorrow
and things will go back
to the way they are
to the way they were
to the way they will always be
so the only promise
that matters now
is the one I will recite
'til death do us part
'til death do us part
'til death do us part
while I stir your morning tea.
Found your blog through the Poem It Out course. I laughed when I read your post here. My husband is forever watching shows like Forensic Files. He swears he's just fascinated by the science behind it all... but like your husband, I wonder.... I've accused him of plotting, too.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel comfortable sharing the real you in the class. I loved your poem. Poems about puppy dogs and rainbows get boring after awhile. I like poems that are a bit grittier. Ever read Sharon Olds?
I haven't read her but I will definitely check her out. Thanks for the tip!
Deletei enjoyed this!
ReplyDeleteespecially the description you gave at the beginning as to how and why it comes about for you...
and you made me laugh with the
"he would still eyeball me when I offered to get him something to drink for no reason." part of your story...
:O)